transcending

it happened quickly

when the first shards of light at early morning

had glanced over the hills.

then was the moment when

I fully realised that all this searching

collecting of myths, looking beyond beauty and nature

would leave me now, emptiness

glances across a crowded room

people we once respected, open to criticism.

inside my own mind, of course,

I knew all too well that the special moments

of a life long-lived, now loved, would come in time.

blue as a colour that I shared so often

and yellow as a sign of morning’s hope

whilst standing alone, looking into the waves ahead

and just wanting it all to stop

for a few seconds of silence

where the river meets the sea, your thoughts and me

no longer as lucid as a sheltering sky

making no sense and wondering why

light opening outwards, learning to fly.

– from ‘the alice conversations’. Work in progress.